Nomfundo And Her Bubble

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So I avoided crowds, antisocial as my friends would call me. I only allowed a very
few friends in my circle, who regularly went out without me. They would ask why I
never wanted to go out with them and my reason would be, “I hate crowds‟,
knowing very well that, it wasn’t entirely true. It was something much more than that,
I just wasn’t ready to tell my story. Perhaps fears of being convinced otherwise were
also underlying.
I have spent a lot of my time alone, preferred texts instead of calls and calls instead of physical
contact. I haven’t even had a good day in a while now. My routine is the same
throughout the week. Wake up, go to the library, come back, have a meal then watch a movie and
that’s just about it. As lonely as I was, if asked I wouldn’t admit but answer every
question in pretence. My family being this far is not helping either, “I miss them but
how on earth will I be able to visit them every time?” Besides I have got to build a life
of my own and have a family of my own, am grown now. My focus has however taken
me out of the fun world, even though I need an ice break I chose not to associate
myself with people.

I am thinking to myself that I should, for once, try to go out with people and have fun.

I am thinking to myself that I should, for once, try to go out with people and have fun. I should bury this notion that “no one will love my company” and just be me. I must stop thinking too much and just do it. As I’m on that thought my friend gives me a call. She just got back in town and wants to meet, “can we go out for drinks?”
She asks excitedly. I replied, “I’m not sure friend, let me ask my cousin if she is still coming”. A non-existent cousin; I made that up to avoid going out, saying no would be rude. I can’t go, after all, I don’t have an outfit, not to mention the very bad hairstyle I have on. So my friend being her old self convinced me to go with her as we had last seen each other three years back when we went to varsity. I agreed; doubting it would be a good idea, especially because I’m still trying to find
employment after three years of studying and no luck as yet. So I started to wonder how it has been long since I went out, had fun and enjoyed myself. “I need a break, maybe I should try this”. Finally I just stood up and decided, since I have nothing to lose let me just meet my friend.

So I took a 15 minute shower and then started to pick clothes to wear. As I was
looking I saw an outfit I hadn‟t worn in a long time and I decided to try it on. It was the
best in my wardrobe but not really the best in my head. I put on my blouse, then trouser and high heels I had bought for an interview. Combed my hair and put on a little make- up.

Standing by my door thinking if I should go or not. Am starting to go in circles, my
friend calls and says “am downstairs”. With so much doubt I went down.

“Wow, she is amazing” am thinking to myself. We hugged and laughed, got into her car and drove off. We got to a party in a local club booked off by some group of varsity friends, but we were allowed in as one of them knew my friend. She is even known in high places, but since that worked in our favour we didn’t mind. I’ve been so sad in my cave and didn’t even want to leave just because I thought I always needed something extra, but even today I haven’t found that extra sauce. The first thought that came to mind is how boring my life is. Hence I have been avoiding people. As we sat down and chatted, it was very nice. It was the best evening of my life.

It was not long before a very cute guy came towards us. “Oh my, he is going to take
my friend and I’ll be left alone” as I was thinking to myself.
“Hi, I’m Brian you remember me?” he asked and we both looked at him surprised.
“I’m… we went to school together, Nomfundo! Oh yes! That‟s you. “He’s talking to
me” am thinking. I replied, “Hey how have you been? Great, how about you? Good
regardless. “This is my friend Ntando, friend this is Brian, we went to school
together”. “May I join you?” asks Brian. “Yes sure”, we both replied. We spoke for a
while and it was awesome!
We exchanged numbers and continued chilling. Are you married; he asks. No I
replied. Boyfriend? No I wanted to build a future first. “Isn’t a man part of that future?”
asked Brian. “Yes… no. I mean you know what I mean”, I replied. He laughs. He
looks so good and the clothes he is wearing are so nice and look very expensive. Oh
my mind is starting to play games with me. As he is staring deep into my eyes am
asking myself what could possibly be going on, in his mind. “So you mean theres no
one in your life currently?” Brian asks. “Yes” I reply.

“Great I would like to take you out” and he continues to look deep into me. As
friends going out… before I can finish he interrupts. “Nah I want to take you out on a
date. “OH my high school crush” I‟m thinking. I laughed, really? “Yes” he replies. My
mind played me for a very long time. This was a hot guy at school and I wasn”t even
a match for him, but here he is, he loves my company and me. He even compliments
me. Then I realised it wasn’t a bad idea to actually go out after all. This made me
realise that being me is all I needed all along. Here I am, enjoying myself and happy.
Nothing else is of importance and I cannot stop smiling.

5 Comments

  1. M loving part 1 already it seems so interesting can’t wait for part 2 want. Want to hear more about this hansome Brian guy.

  2. Very interesting may we have part 2🙏

    1. Part 2 to be out very soon🌸

  3. There’s more to come and expect more and more about Brian as well🌸

  4. Am eager to know what’s gonna happen of part 2. You write bavy gurl💯🔥

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